I’ve not grown stronger

Once I was fragile.
Now I am broken.

Stand by me, Lord

To do things
Instead of talking about them
This will be my very last chance

One day I won’t leave the train at my station
One day I will stand in front of your door
This will be my very last chance

I hope something will give me the courage
I hope I won’t have to go on alone
There will be no next chance if I ruin this one

God knows I’m not dying
but I breathe now
God knows
it’s the only way to heal now

Deception

I thought you were perfection.
But all you are is a master of deception.

I’ll never be close you you.

Speechless

They say some things are written in the stars.
Lately I really question us.
Will we make it?

It’s a cold and starry night.
I’m drenched in tears.
I lift my head and look at the stars above.

Can they predict our future?
Can they tell me that it will be okay again?

Seems like the stars are speechless,
astonished just like me.
How could I ruin us that much?!
Hurt us that much?!
Damage us that much?!

Suddenly I feel so stupid,
Gazing at a sky that has no answers.

You gave my emptiness a name.

When you said you’d protect me,
but became the danger instead
When you promised me a life at your side,
but you didn’t even call back
When you said you’d catch me a star,
but all you came up with were excuses
When you made me dance
in the ashes of my world once again

You gave my emptiness a name.

The closer I co…

The closer I come, the faster you run.
The more I want you, the more you reject me.
Whenever I’m not interested in you,
you come back to mess up my life.
If I had only one wish, I’d beg God to let me know,
if there will ever be a chance for us.
This insecurity totures me,
it keeps me awake.
Will we find each other once?
Will our time come?

I’m beyond repair

Each of your words is like a revelation.
Never seen such beauty like yours.
You’ve been so bad to me lately,
but I couldn’t resist you.

I don’t think you noticed me,
I’m a gray ghost with rosy scars.
I watch you from afar and all I say is “Hey”.
You confuse me so much.
I doubt all I believed in.
I thought I was save.

I want to hold you and protect you.
I’m afraid you could break.
You’re not mine but I want to keep you.
Don’t want you to leave. Please, don’t go home.
That night is young, we still have time.

Beautifully Broken

I saw him when he just passed me.
He was talking but then our eyes met.
They were as blue as the summer sky,but I was thinking of an ocean to drown myself in instead.

It was maybe just a second, or two.
But it felt like time was frozen.
Only a shallow wind stroke my hair,
no sounds disturbed, no one spoke a single word.

I was shivering because his eyes radiated such cold.
His body was covered with scars – like mine.
They tell his story, the story of a broken young man.
And in all his hurt and destruction he was beautiful.

The sight took my breath away.
The shimmer in his eyes, his moves –
He was so beautiful.

His eyes said that he had no plans for the future.
And his body said that he didn’t care either.
And every time he blinked his eyes looked prettier
And a little more sad.